"Trust me enough to let things happen without striving to predict or control them...When you project yourself into the future, rehearsing what you will do or say, you are seeking to be self sufficient: to be adequate without My help...The alternative is to live fully in the present, depending on me each moment." Sarah Young, Jesus Calling
I hate to admit it but this is exactly how I have lived my life, even having complete conversations in my head over future events. Nine times out of ten I have envisioned worst case scenarios that never come to pass. All that wasted energy worrying. All the wasted day to day moments spent fretting over what might happen in the future.
I shared earlier in the week about my cleansing weekend retreat. I had such a time of renewal and acceptance, finally coming to terms with what is not in my control and nailing those areas of my life to the cross.
"Trust in the LORD and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the LORD and he will give you your heart's desires." Psalm 37:3-4
Really trusting the Lord...what a burden that's been lifted. How much easier it is to live fully in the moment. Accepting the good and the bad in life one day at a time. In the past my mind would default to whatever my crisis of the moment was. If there wasn't one, then the enemy had a playlist of favorites that he could replay as needed. The trick now is to occupy my mind with thoughts that are pleasing to God. It is definitely a work in progress...old habits die hard, but I am committed to living life fully in the present.